One day, I woke early in the morning to watch the sunrise. Ah the
beauty of God's creation is beyond description. As I watched, I praised
God for His beautiful work. As I sat there, I felt the Lord's presence with me.

He asked me:
"Do you love me?"
I answered, "Of course, God! You are my Lord and Savior!"
Then He asked, "If you were physically handicapped, would you still love me?"

I was perplexed. I looked down upon my arms, legs, and the rest of my body and
wondered how many things I wouldn't be able to do, the things that I took for granted.
And I answered, "It would be tough to be handicap, Lord, but yes, I would still love You."

Then the Lord asked: "If you were blind, would you still love my creation?"
I thought, “How could I love something without being able to see it?” Then I was reminded
of all the blind people in the world and how many of them still loved God and His creation?”
So I answered, "I couldn't image not seeing, but yes, I would still love You."

The Lord then asked me, "If you were deaf, would you still listen to my word?"
I thought, “How could I listen to anything being deaf?” Then I understood. Listening to
God's Word is not merely hearing with our ears, but our hearts.
I answered, "It would be tough, but yes, I would still listen to Your word."

The Lord then asked: “If you were mute, would you still praise My Name?"
I thought, “How could I praise You without a voice?” Then it occurred to me: God wants
us to sing from our very heart and soul. It never matters what we sound like. And Praising
God is not always with a song, but when we are persecuted, we give God praise with our
words of thanks. So I answered, "Though I could not physically sing,
yes, I would still praise Your Name."


Then the Lord asked:
"Do you really love Me?"
With courage and a strong conviction, I answered boldly, " Yes Lord! I love You because You
are the One and true God!"

I thought I had answered well, but, I couldn't have been more wrong.

God asked, "THEN WHY DO YOU SIN?"
I answered, "Because I am only human. I am not perfect."

"THEN WHY IN TIMES OF PEACE DO YOU STRAY THE FURTHEST?
WHY ONLY IN TIMES OF TROUBLE DO YOU PRAY THE EARNEST?"

No answers. Only tears.

The Lord continued:
"Why only sing at fellowships and retreats? Why seek Me only in times of worship?
Why ask things so selfishly? Why ask things so unfaithfully?"

The tears continued to roll down my cheeks.

He continues, "Why are you ashamed of Me? Why are you not spreading My Gospel?
Why in times of persecution, you cry to others when offered My shoulder to cry on?
Why make Excuses when I give you opportunities to serve in My Name?"

I tried to answer, but there was no answer to give.

He continues, "You are blessed with life. I did not make you to throw this gift away.
I have blessed you with talents to serve Me, but you continue to turn away. I have
revealed My Word to you, but you do not attain it. I have spoken to you, but you were
deaf to my voice. I have shown My blessings to you, but you were too blind to see them,
I have heard your prayers and I have answered them all."

"SO, DO YOU TRULY LOVE ME?"

I could not answer. How could I? I was embarrassed beyond belief. I had no excuses.
What could I say to this? When my heart had cried out and the tears had flowed.
I said, "Please forgive me Lord. I am unworthy to be Your child."
Then God answered, "That is My Grace, My Child."
I asked, "Then why do you continue to forgive me? Why do You love me so?"

God answered: " Because you are My Creation. You are my Child. I will never abandon
you. When you cry, I will have compassion and cry with you. When you shout with joy,
I will shout with joy with you. When you are down, I will encourage you. When you fall,
I will pick you up. When you are tired, I will carry you. I will be with you till the end
of days, and I will love you forever."

Never had I cried so hard before. How could I have been so cold? How could I have hurt
God as I had done? I asked God, "How much do You love me?" The Lord stretched out
His arms, and as I saw His nail-pierced hands He said, “This is how much I love you.”

“But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Much more then, being now justified by his blood, we shall be saved from wrath through him. For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by his life.” - Romans 5:8-10.